Sunday, January 02, 2005

welcome 2005!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!!!

oh well, finally 2004 is history n now a new start of the year 2005. nth much to say bcos it wasn't a happy one for mi. jus a short update thou.

mondae - thursdae

heard of the tsunami disaster in the news on sundae 26th dec. a day after christmas. gracie called mi regarding the disaster cos our dear fren keying is in india. duno which part she went so we were worried, only knew she's gg to some temple n will be back on thurs. she's uncontactable so we couldn't do anitng, but we knew she would be fine.

skool as per normal. was the organiser for wad we gonna do on new year's eve. jus a simple one. dinner, movie n countdown. have been chking on the tickets for few daes till its finally up in the webby. cfm the timing w dar n frenz den carry on w the booking. did a little for our project as in discussion la. was so lookin forward to new year's eve. duno y. kinda excited.

fridae

new year's eve here. got classes in the morning. gracie was dressed up cos she don intend to go home. cher,aini,gracie,drew n i were all late for lesson at 9am. but our tutor was kind enuff to give us attendance. ekeke. gracie was wearing a red tube w her knitted jacket ova. she kips pulling her tube cos its kinda big for her. LOL. after maths, had makan at food junction den did our comm skills proj. didnt finish thou. went to lab cos we wanna chk stuff but all lock. went to the lab toilet. someone came knockin on our door twice. we were tinkin it was drew but he's no where insight when we came out. he said he didn't. couldn't tell he was lying. den the atmosphere bcmes eerie..after tat drew told mi tat he was the one who knocked on the door. all gt fooled by drew. damn him! <--thats for u drew.

cher n i headed home while gracie went to drew's hse. hell knows wad they were doing at his hse.. gracie blogged for all i noe with lots of outdated photos. oOpZ! rched hme, painted my nails, online, slack till damn late den went to bath n prepare. rushed like mad n was raining non-stop. raining since the tsunami disaster. when i was done, it was alrdy 730pm, dar n frens all rched which was suppose to be our mitin time, only then i left my hse. hehe. rched somerset mrt at 745pm. went to collect tickets den rush dwn to find lihwen n jia at the sushi teh outside taka. it took kinda long for our food to be served. n we were running late. bout 910pm den the food came but jia's came at 920pm or so. foot the bill den walked dwn to cine. raining again. luckily i brought my umbrella. heard frm lihwen dat shuying tot we were watchin at shaw so she went there. waited for her to rush to cine. 5mins late for our show.




photos taken at sushi teh..

could sense tat dar wasn't right after i gave number to my fren whom i lost contact w kinda long. so he was giving mi the sian sian look. he was slping in the show. tok to him he ignored. everyone was laughing but he was jus showing his black face. after the show told him tat i wanna tok things out b4 midnite. was suppose to mit gracie they all but they were so far away. at meridien playin pool when im at cine so i decided nt too. cine was having a mini countdwn outside so it was flooded w pple. squeezing n pushin here n there. lihwen, jia n shuying went off first while dar n i stil inside cine. bcos of the situation we'll in tats y i don't wanna look for gracie. wad's the pt. den he'll gek one face to all my frenz. sigh. we didn't tok tings out cos he doesn't wanto. heard the countdwn 3,2,1 den everyone was spraying the foam outside. very nice as thou it was snowing. couples huggin n kissing each other, frens wishing happy new year. all with the happy smiling faces whereas for mi..i was sulking cos i was sad. tis is hw i welcome the new year. my eyes are wet, was controllin my tears. he didn't say anitin, n i was the one whu make the first move to hug him kiss him n say happy new year. i nearly cried out. he onli wanted to go home. we were walkin on our own. he disappear to buy cig n e33. told him nt to but he put my words to deaf ears. snatch away he shouted at mi. he's makin mi damn miserable cos he doesn't wanto tok. i almost gave up cos i couldn't take it animore, wanted to throw him the ring n leave but i couldn't do it. cos i noe he won't cme after mi. sigh. did abit of toking, went his hse thou we nt ok yet cos i dowana go hme. i jus pretend nth happen but i stayed away frm him. finally he wanted to tok. i told him everyting of hw i feel n started crying non-stop. was cryin whole dae yesterdae(saturdae). on n off. xmas n new year was ruined.

sundae

came home frm dar's hse onli tis morning. very she bu de. only wanto be w him every moment. but he gotta go back to camp. was reading some blog entries jus now..all were happy entries to the new year but for mi.........cant help to feel sad again. was alwaz lookin to celebrate public holidaes or special occasions w him but after so mani tings happen im kindof dead alrdy. nt tat i dowan spent w him jus dat i no longer look forward to it animore cos im so afraid history will repeat itself. he said he'll chged n promise mi it wouldn't happen again. i hope so. i cherish tis relationship alot alot alot. my darling no matter wad. i don hate u. really! i duno hw to hate sumone i love so dearly.

new year's resolution
1. lose weight,get rid of hidden fats
2. to have a smooth journey w darling. lesser cries more happiness.
3. study hard n get gd grades <--doubt i can cos i hate studying hate projects..

cant tink of ani at the moment...jus wanna be happy in the new year.

janeybaby tells a story @ 4:04 PM
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