On my way to town with dearest lihwen. She forgot my milo peng!! Roars!! The aircon made my throat super dry and itchy I keep coughing. Argh! The bus ride extended from 45mins to 1hour 15mins because of the heavy traffic. WahPiangz!! Was already 730pm when we reached town. -.-"

trying out her new samsung fone

C902

G900

I was contemplating between this two gadgets. Attracted to the latter because of the red color. But have to forgo the idea knowing its a touch screen phone. After playing with Lihwen's touch screen phone, I concluded it is really very laychey. It can really be a hassle. Somemore no answer/hangup button. I don't like la! Whereas the former doesn't look appealing to make me have the die-also-must-buy feeling. Considering the thought I need a new phone badly, I don't have a choice. Nevertheless, its not ugly and its a camera phone. So suitable for a narcissistic person like me. Haha!

Alas, got my hands on C902. Gotten rid of my N73. No more nokia phone. Screw them!! My N73 gave me shit problems. 1st the lag. 2nd kept prompting not enough memory please delete some data. 3rd not enough memory to receive sms. WTF?! I can tolerate the first two but not the 3rd. Any longer with my N73 will definitely bring up my blood pressure. Sometimes I wished I can throw it against the wall and let it break into pieces. Dulans! Thank goodness my plan is due for an upgrade. The only complain I have for my new toy is that it doesn't come along with a memory card. With the internal memory only 160mb.... Yes. Pathetic!!

Time for dinner. We planned to have a budget meal but both of us are craving for some ramen. So we headed for Ajisen, else very 对不起 ourselves.

side dishes.

spicy cha shu ramen. 以毒攻毒

dig in!

I asked her did my voice change.. Her reply was 'very changed'. LoL! Why am I falling sick so easily these days?! Sighh...

slacking at taka square

We left for home at 10plus. We merely spent 2hours in town. I wanna drag her for dessert actually to satisfy my sweet tooth but on a second thought, I think I've put on weight la!! Dammit!! Are you saying I am crazy?? NO I AM NOT! Its not an illusion. N.O. NO my weighing machine is not spoiled either. Every time back from dar's place I'll weigh myself. Its becoming a habit. Cause I think I eat too much when I was with him. Anyway, who cares!! Time for me to control my eating habits. No more suppers! No more heavy dinner! No more junk food! Just MORE SLEEP!

adios.

I have no idea what im doing here at this hour. I should be sleeping. Weekends was spent with dar. Apparently, every time when its time for me to head home there sure to be something not right. Anyway, I will just sleep it off cause I don't know whats wrong either. ?_? Nevermind.

Met him on Friday night and went to his friend's pub at Mosque Street. The street reminds me of the Korean restaurant I frequent with Lihwen, Jieyi and Zijia. Im craving a little now. =P Back to the pub, I guess that will be my 1st and last time Im gonna step into that pub I hope? It is so damn smelly and choking. OMG~!!! I can't breathe and I so wanna leave. No joke. Bad for my health!!!! And when will dar ever listen.. always drink so much. Haii.. Followed them for supper and went back to sleep.

Barbeque on Saturday. Was feeling moody in the afternoon cause I think my wisdom tooth is growing and its making my whole gum aching. Add in the hunger, the wait and the smoky smell still on my hair after washing, totally dampens my mood. Without the panadol I'll be so damn extremely sian. They bought lots of food but plenty of leftovers. I love the curry with bread though. =)

its on fire. no pics of food cos im too lazy to take.

dar played badminton with his brother. Bro kanna bully only. Haha!

KO-ed shortly after we reached home.

Slacked at home on Sunday. Super duper tired. I kept dozing off while watching television. He sent me home and went out for supper. My throat's giving me problems again. Maybe the sambal? Maybe the curry? Didn't really touch the bbq food so I doubt they're the culprits. I just wish I don't wake up with a bad sorethroat/no voice. Pray for me!!


byebye

Finally caught this movie at Plaza today with Andrew, Neo, Jiajie and Sharon. Tix were selling like hotcakes over the weekend. Sibei kua zhang you know? Was watching Batman Begins on Channel 5 last night (Sunday). At least to refresh my memory how batman came about, the storyline and the casts in it. 2 and a half hours show. I thought it was gonna end soon when Joker was caught. But there's more to come. They like to crash lambo's alot I realised. And I didn't know Edison Chen was in it too. He played a farking small role for a few seconds if you noticed. =.="""

After which, we went to eat Rochor beancurd cos it was still darn early to go home. So unlike me. =x Headed for a few rounds of pool and home sweet home.

tata

A little recap of what I did. Weekdays was spent with dar. We went town and accompanied him to shop. He got 2 polos from GAP. Nice Nice. Waited for his friend at Audiohouse to knock off. By coincidental, I saw who I shouldn't see. Damn suay! Buy lottery also not so zhun. Then it was time to go home on Friday night. Friday came so fast just like the blink of an eye.

Super tired today. Want all the fun.. don't complain! Yes, I heard you! Recovering from flu but I have a sexy voice now. So man! Haha! The lozenges my brother got from the clinic made me so wanna puke. Tasted super duper awful. Yucks!

Saturday night was meant to be a primary school reunion. All planned and ready for some boogie. But but but...Due to some circumstances, from a total of 9 people to 4 to 2 pathetic girls. For once, this reunion was a total failure. Wassup~~?!?!? Why all the last minute ?? WHY?? Was so pissed and depressed the whole night until I finally got my arse outta the house. Met up with jieyi and headed down to Clarke Quay. Though we were extremely moody over everything that happened, we still want the fun awaiting us. At least she managed to get one of her friend along. Saved his Saturday night as well as ours. =P

Spaghetti Aglio Olio

mocha villa

jieyi

at gotham penthouse. she's blinded by the flash. ^^

yi liang and her

me and yi liang

no sexy back. i've got a sexy voice.

pathetic 2

Had my dinner at TCC. Her friend Yi Liang came and we left for Gotham Penthouse. The crowd and music yesterday sucks big time compared to the 1st time I went there. Get down on some drinks, made themselves alittle high and we proceeded to MOS to dance. Me? I can't drink else I'll merlion. My mood automatically sets to maximum with good music. Haha! We happily hopped from one club to another cause I am a member of both. So why not ? You won't lose out anyway. =) I didn't even know trance and r&b switched dance floor. Thank God!! They should have done that a long long time ago. R&B is always packed like sardines. All you do is squeeze squeeze squeeze. Now they have a bigger dance floor, more spacious and its still filled up with people. The crowd never stop coming. Extremely happening!!

still looking fresh in MOS toilet.

on the dance floor

he likes to be the middleman

By the way, I just realised there's a new tactic for knowing a girl. This guy told me... 'you are snow white and you have 7 dwarfs dancing around you'... -_-""" how does he want me to reply? Say Thank You? Raised my brows at him and back to my dancing. A word of advice, I ain't those 16, 17 year old girl who buy all these sweet talks. Save it ya? It will not work on me. Saw an online friend of mine by coincidence. He spotted me though. I suck at recognizing people unless I personally know you in person. Pardon me.

We were on the platform and suddenly a conflict between 2 malays started. I was already trying to position myself at a safer spot but the fight occurred too soon. The guy's arm accidentally hit me. Luckily impact not big. Idiot!! Argh!! What's worse was the innocent Yi Liang got pushed off the platform together. And for this, his jeans pocket tore. =x Oopsy I let the secret out. LOL! There was this ah gua standing at the platform posing nonstop. She's got nothing underneath her clothes. She thinks she is goddamn sexy and gorgeous. -.-" Apparently, everyone could tell she's an ah gua so no one dare to get close to her. Gross la!! After having to talk loudly in the club, I sounded like one too. Sexy! Haha!


Partied till lights on, have a drink at Mac then jieyi's bf came to fetch us home. Her bf always come and fetch her no matter how late she party till. Just to make sure she's safe and sound. Good good. I can get a ride home too. Reached home with a heavy head. I can feel my brain freezing. Dragged my feet to shower and off to bed.

Today will be just tv and rest for me. =)

Please don't tell me weekends are bf/gf's day. Cause it doesn't occur to me. Due to some reasons, no sweet moments with him. Maybe we were just waiting for each other to ask to meet. Or was it just my wishful thinking.. Hmmm.. Nevermind. One word to describe my weekend. Bored!!

When I thought I was happy, I wasn't. When I thought I've forgotten, I did not. Whole day, I was listening to my mp3s and singing along track after track as well as playing Viwawa. Trying to keep my mind free of everything. I may seem happy. Seem nonchalant. In fact, deep down.. I just don't feel right. Perhaps I just want to hide my emotions. Hid it and lock it. Show no one. Tell no one. Sigh...

When things doesn't go the way you want it, you just gotta live with it. Things aren't as complicated as it seems to be. Only human tends to make things complicated. Maybe its the thorn in the heart that has yet to be removed. Even a rubber band will break if you exert to much strength trying to pull it.

Human always self-contradict. If one always think negatively, they are simply torturing themselves as well as others. Eventually, it'll lead to too many guesses, too many doubts, too many misunderstanding, too many conflict, too many unsolved problems, and the list goes on. Be it family, friends or relationships. Constantly being skeptical what's right and wrong. Wassup with the human mind? Why can't everything be simpler? Everyone should look on the bright side and one day you will see rainbow. See how colourful your life can be. Easier said than done. I know.

Well... We still have to look straight ahead and let bygones be bygones. Tomorrow will be a better day a happy me. =P

If you guys have watched taiwan drama 'The Outsiders', you will definitely know this song. So sweet and meaningful. I like!


Till the End

All these precious moments
with you by my side
must be a gift from heaven
that's holding me all night

i don't know how i found you
i'm thankful that i have
now that i have a love so true
to hold, to keep, to share

* In my heart i can no longer hold inside
all of the love i used to hide
i'll always be with you until the very end
in this world there is no place i'd rather be
you are my life, my soul, my girl
and through it all i know
that you've come to see that you're the one till the end*

All my friends around me
say you'd be gone too soon
baby i'm gonna make them see
we've found our way back home

repeat *

We'll always be till the end.

Its 5.47am now. Tired but can't sleep. Argh!!! Lied on my bed..tuck under the blanket..toss and turn for 2hours..Sickening! Psst...Guess what? Im craving for Big Breakfast now. Haha!! I need to stop my craving for food. Damn!! I no like when people tell me I put on weight. Control control control....

Since I am unable to sleep, came online and read some articles.

Alright! Goody Night peeps. I need plenty of beauty sleep. I want pimple free!! If possible please knock me unconscious for 24 hours. Else I prolly wake up at 12noon. Tryna force myself to sleep with an empty stomach now before daybreak. Sweet dreams everyone. =)

after 3 consecutive days lacking in sleep... I mean really.. like only 5hrs or less ? I can tell my machine breaking down anytime. Damn worn out!! Ask me why and I'll tell you I do not know. Sob!! Alright, put aside the unhappy post that makes me seem like an emo ger. No I am not ok?! NOT gettit ?

like finally...... patronized Zhou's Kitchen which was under Tung Lok for their Hi-Tea Buffet.

their 招牌

waiting to be seated. ugly pimple on my cheek i hate!!

engrossed on the menu

They took their own sweet time to serve. The food prolly still cooking and steaming in the kitchen. =.= 想饿死我.. When it came... it came 1 dish at a time. OMG~

carrot cake

drunken chicken

all yummy except for that bowl of soup. I love the mini egg tarts!!

end of 1st round.

yao tio. no joke.

unglam her.

gotcha~

while waiting for our 2nd round.

me.jieyi

lihwen.me

it was like this......

then it turn out like this..... we so wanna cry.
just looking at it made us full man.
we managed to finish 95% of it though. 5% are the not so nice ones..

before we left.

on the whole...food still passable given the cheap price 21nett each.

took a cab down to far east plaza and start our shopping spree. and guess what ? I was left with a pathetic $1 coin. Woah.. I spent exactly 100$ including food. When was the last time I spent this much in a day, I seriously have no clue no idea. Super duper long..... I usually go home empty handed. All I have in my stomach was the buffet I had. That was like between 3 to 4 plus in the afternoon? Which means one meal today again. Breakfast cum lunch cum dinner. Oh great!!

since no money to shop further nor even eat we headed to taka cause I wanna check out handphones at singtel shop. Then we stumbled upon this Food Fest going on at taka square. but but but..... our wallets are empty. :( We just didn't want to draw money and indulge ourselves in such sinful act. Haha!! We merely watch people eat. Jin ke lian...... Now I am fucking hungry I can eat air... Argh!

till 13 july. doncha miss it. =)

people mountain people sea

can see cannot eat

time to go home. my legs are breaking.

After a good night's rest, my mood seems better than yesterday. Feeling so cold the entire night and I missed the warmth he gave me. Was upset cause his words affected me somehow. No doubt it was my fault but he turn things ugly and complicated. I can feel he's afraid that history will repeat itself from the way he reprimanded me. :(

Felt like shit yesterday. No mood for anything. Cooped at home the whole night. No phone calls no sms. Just me, myself and my music. I managed to suppress my emotions. Today, no more emo janey only hungry janey. =P

Whenever there's love, there's bound to be arguments. Whenever I felt loved, it always seem to come to an end. Can some kind soul tell me why?! My retribution for being hard-hearted on my ex ?? Is it ?? In a relationship, the word HURT never fail to give me hell. I fucking hate it!! GO AWAY!! Stop tormenting me! I hurt him but he hurt me back indirectly. Whenever I hear the word CONSIDER, I'm beginning to lose all hope. This will be the last I want to hear in a relationship. Now, it came too soon for me to react. If someone can let go so easily, why should one hold on. Not being pessimistic. If a relationship needs to be reconsidered, I guess its more or less............. Maybe it should... sigh... If I really want to quibble over every detail in a relationship, it'll be very tiring. Not about guys or girls. Just the relationship. I think I have plenty to say. However, I feel it isn't necessary. I had enough of being a 管家婆. I don't want to control or restrict anything.

Shit!! I think I need a good cry. I have not cry for so damn long I don't know how long. I told myself I won't cry anymore. The last I cried was when my ex did something really despicable to me. Was glad I pulled it through. All the tears are piling up. From the previous break, from the new start, from all the unhappiness only I know. Everything is accumulating. I just can't cry. I'm suffocating. I've put the past behind and starting anew, but outcome doesn't seem appealing at all. Has he really moved on? Or is his past still haunting him? Apparently, I feel he hasn't let go. I have no idea. Anyway, both parties are at fault when a conflict start. No one to blame. We just didn't handle it well enough. Or perhaps I should take the full responsibility since the fight started because of me? Whatever it is....we need time to cool off for now.....

Oh man... I seriously need ktv now. That's what I always do when I am feeling down. Or rather go somewhere I used to go. No matter how upset I am, I always put up a smile infront of my friends. If they ever see me cry, it means I'm extremely sad. So I hope they won't get the chance to see it. Haii..

快乐永远是短暂，悲伤却永远的存在。

而我。。。是活在快乐还是悲伤的世界?