Thursday, October 05, 2006

freaking cold, bored and sleepy! its onli 3.05pm. WTF! i wanna sleep but can't sleep. nth to surf either. everyday i've been surfing on the same tings. sigh! my supervisor ain't helping at all. ask him hw shld we do the project.. he tells us some things which are not even answering our questions. as gd as nt saying. argh!! i've been offer for OPP to do abap in brunei but i guess i'll be rejecting the offer. 1stly, if i were to go it's all because of the fun that im gg overseas and nt a working attitude. 2ndly, wtf is abap language ? plenty of question marks flying round my head. 3rdly, im nt a hands-on person.. and i hate it so wads the pt of gg there to suffer. the only thing is it'll be shorter than local ipp. 2half months compared to 3mths. but i m nt gg! =)

i wanna go ktv and club!!! i dun feel good at all!! fuk!! yst was suppose to be a fine day but due to some farking reasons and i've gt farking scolded by tat someone, my day was bad. the scene just kept flashing in my mind. but i aint sad, mayb because im getting used to it. so y upset bout it. if he wanto force mi to leave. i would say, anitime. i've been keeping quiet when he attitude, give me a face to see or wadever. i dun wish to say a word nor argue cos i noe in the end i'll be the one who get upset over it. we've drifted for all i can say. tolerating him time and again is making me really tired. i won't say i don't love him anymore, i still love him just as much. but wad i see is a changed person. i've been ctrling my feelings. there's time when he makes mi wanting to quarrel. den if i started it i'll be in the wrong. im disappointed by everything. sighh.. :( typing this makes me feel like tearing. but i won't! all this makes mi feel lik agreeing to the OPP to brunei. but i don't wish to do it out of impulse. just wish to go on holiday and forget bout everyting.

got his msg. but i duno how i shld reply him. cos im still thinking bout the incident, the tone, the look on his face. i've done no wrong. but y flared at me ? u have yr feelings so do i. u have yr emotions so do i. u flared and i just kept quiet. so rare of me!! ok.. enuff said.

leaving school soon cos i nid to go to singpost that close at 5pm. 45mins journey hme. yawns. shld get my rest after that. didn't sleep well yest. was in bed early but toss and turn till i duno wad time either.

ciaozz.. =)

janeybaby tells a story @ 3:13 PM
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