Sunday, April 06, 2008

birthday present

I used to anticipate receiving gifts from him, used to feel elated upon receiving them. But somehow, I don't feel the same way anymore. Perhaps he made the change in me after all these years. Been struggling for weeks. I just did not want to contact him cause I've got nothing to say to him, did not want to spend the night with him cause feelings not right, did not bother about the relationship cause I wanna run away from reality, did not want to know what has he been up to cause I simply can't be bothered.... I just felt it is more of a companionship during his off days than a couple spending time together. I don't yearn to see him. I can't explain why either. I used to feel something's missing whenever he's not around and I always hope his off day come in the blink of an eye. but now.....? When I was out with him, I have the tendency of saying 'lets call it a day and go home'.

Maybe I come to accept the fact that he isn't the one ?

Maybe I have to admit that we can only be together as boyfriend/girlfriend instead of husband and wife ?

This is so dead so bored and no life. Everything seems good to him but not to me. No arguements doesn't mean everything is fine. This isn't love. Yes, both parties must be responsible in building strong relationship. If it fails, both parties are at fault. However, im really tired.

janeybaby tells a story @ 4:45 PM
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